What’s My Authority? Reflections on Blogging
I’ve been blogging for all of six weeks now and I’ve discovered one thing: I have no clue what I’m doing. Currently, I haven’t made any money (enviously looks at the people posting their impressive first-month income reports), I pretty much gave up on Instagram, and I’ve got more recipes I’ll never try saved on Pinterest than I do followers.
This past week I caught myself putting off blogging and avoiding trying to write a post because I didn’t feel like I had anything worthwhile to share. Between the stress of finals week and my personal life, to me it barely seemed like I was keeping my life in order — so how was I supposed to come up with some helpful list to tell readers how to do things?
Why Did I Start Blogging?
I started blogging because I don’t think anything through. I got the idea, I wrote a post, and was like heck yeah I can totally do this. And I still believe that, but it’s so much more than I ever realized from the outside looking in.
Trying to create new material, stay genuine, build a following … it’s exhausting. And I find myself struggling to not fall into the easy traps of creating click-bait type content just to get a couple more views.
That’s something that always bothered me about blogging, even before I started doing it myself. The internet seemed to be so oversaturated with 20-somethings telling the world how to do things. How on earth did so many people have years worth of knowledgeable on material that can be presented conveniently in list form?
There are about three things I’m confident in my ability enough to teach people how to do: how to swim well enough they won’t drown, how to write really kick-ass essays, and change a flat tire on a bike. Currently, I have yet to write a blog post on any of these.
Instead, I’ve sat staring at blank word documents trying to write posts that provide answers to questions I’m asking myself.
The more I write posts and try to promote my blog, the more I realize I feel like I have no authority (which, if you know anything about writing, is a pretty dang essential part).
So Why Am I Still Blogging?
I think in even just the short time I’ve had my blog my tone has changed — and in a way that is (hopefully) more genuine and authentic. I started out initially by trying to tell my audience what to do. But in reality what I was really doing was writing about what I needed someone to tell me.
But now I’ve realized that I definitely don’t have the authority to tell people how to set goals or live their life. As of two months ago, if you’d asked me what my life goals were would’ve stared at you blankly. I honestly probably couldn’t have even told you what my hobbies were. That’s how incredibly disconnected I was with myself.
So who am I, to come out here, at the start of my journey of self-discovery, to try and tell you how to live your life?
I don’t like to read blogs that sound like they’re trying to tell me what to do, so why would I write a blog like that?
I’m striving instead to focus on what lessons I’ve learned through my experiences and to share those moments and thoughts with you. I don’t have the next great ‘5 Ways to Change Your Life’ (and honestly, does anyone, let alone a 21 year old college student?). But, I might have a semi-self-deprecating and brutally honest post on the ‘5 Most Desperate Things I’ve Done Because of a Guy.’ Which you’ll probably enjoy reading a lot more and learn a lot more from too.
What I also have is authority on my life. I have the authority to present that life to you via this blog. Maybe my life slightly filtered and altered, but my life.
I have thoughts, I have ideas, I have opinions. I may not have answers, but that’s ok.